Sunday, February 15, 2009
Anticipation is growing in me as the days go by. Each day we get closer to WED the day of our first ultrasound I find myself getting more and more nervous. My husband and I were talking the other day and it is funny how we are both anxious for different reasons. I find myself praying there is a heartbeat. It will be devastating to me to not see a heartbeat, to have to lose this baby so early after I have begun to bond already, something I told myself I wouldn't do but I can't help myself. My husband is anxious about how many babies we will see. He thinks there will be a heartbeat but how many? I believe this time we will have one baby. I am counting down the days till we go. I know my nerves will be all over the place as we wait in the waiting room. Excitement, nervousness, scared and worried of the unknown. Mixture of feeling and emotions as we wait for the first moment to meet our new baby to hopefully join our lives on earth.